Number 3 on my 30 before 30 list is to get a tattoo. In June 2016 I did just that. Above is my arrow. I designed it myself and the reason I got my arrow is because of that quote. It reminds me to keep moving forward, to not look back and to believe in myself and where I’m headed. It’s something I’ve thought about for a long, long time. For me, a tattoo is for ever so it had to be right. I have spent hours sketching out tattoos and arrows. I ummed and aaawwed over lots of ideas, different words, different phrases but decided on an arrow. I thought about ‘memento vivere’ for a while which is Latin for ‘remember to live’ but that just felt too personal and a bit too obvious about what I might be about plus I don’t know any Latin! For me, my arrow says remember to live aswell.
My tattoo is on the inside of my left arm, so it’s pointing towards my thumb. The location was crucial. I wanted it to be somewhere I would see it everyday but not be too in your face. I wanted a visible reminder to believe in myself but not be too obvious. It is also the location where I would self harm. Where I would pinch my arm in a heightened sense of emotions and panic attack where I was so emotional I would be desensitized, be completely cut off from the world around me and would feel that I need to pinch myself in order to feel something and to snap out of it. This was a physical and visual reminder not to do it – I don’t want to mess up my tattoo! And you’ll be pleased to know that I haven’t 😀
On the day of my appointment I felt excited all day. And then we get to the tiny studio and it’s boiling hot. I started to get very anxious and went outside twice for some air before anything had even happened! Once I was laying down and we got going I was absolutely fine – chatting away to the tattooist like nothing was happening – it didn’t even hurt! The irony is that today I have been for a blood test, which I am super phobic about – I almost fainted and am still feeling sorry for myself!
Do you have any tattoos? Is there a story behind them? A big reason why?