When I’m in worrying mode 5

No #FridayFive from me today. My mood has been low recently, I’m feeling confused about what my life might like look over the next few months. Yesterday was very stressful and I need to take a little bit of time to look after myself. I’ve also been struggling with my blogging. What am I doing? Why am I doing it? I’ve been feeling like a very little fish in a very big pond. I’m going to be taking a little blogging break for a few weeks.

In the meantime, something a little different from me – a poem. The words just seemed to enter my head as I struggled to sleep last night! Hope you’re all okay, look after yourselves.

Panicking about lost keys
Searched high and low
Where could they be
When I’m in worrying mode

Milly’s been poorly for so long
I hope the bacteria is long gone
Emails that cause me to implode
When I’m in worrying mode

Last thing I thought about
Before I finally managed to sleep
First thing I thought of as I opened my eyes
When I’m in worrying mode

Trying desperately to keep this stress under control
Trying desperately not to let the anxiety take hold
My body shakes, it’s all I can think of
When I’m in worrying mode

The nervous energy turns into a body of lead
The active brain turns into sludge
Too anxious to sleep turns to barely awake
When I’m in worrying mode

What I worry about most is what comes next
Anxiety’s best friend who’s always late to the party
The get up and go is gone
When I’m in worrying mode


© Lauren Ephithite

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5 thoughts on “When I’m in worrying mode

  • rachaelstray

    Lauren there are times when we all feel low and as bloggers we question our direction and just in general worry about where life is headed.

    Your FridayFive posts are genuinely the highlight of my week. I too have been struggling lately and because of you I am trying to see the positives and focus on being grateful.

    Take some time for yourself. Look after your body and mind and come back fresh. Have some me-time and relax. Take the pressure off yourself. We readers and blogging friends will be here waiting for you and ready to welcome you back when you’re ready x

  • Heather

    You seemed quite chirpy yesterday morning when I saw you, but then none of us know what’s going on inside. Sorry to hear your day went downhill with the stress of lost keys. I didn’t see them but I suppose I wouldn’t have a need to see them. I hope they were found.

    I’m sure Milly will soon be on the mend with your love and care and a bit of vets know how. I do understand the worry first hand with Hugo and his poorly foot.

    Get today out of the way and a lovely relaxed weekend with your man and Milly. Turn all those negatives into positives X X X

  • beetleypete

    Sorry to hear that, Lauren, but it comes across very well in your poem. I was actually not going to have a Friday Five myself this week. Huge problems with my car, Ollie very ill with a bacterial infection, and Julie also unwell, with two or three things going on.
    Add the gloomy damp weather, and I am more than usually sympathetic to your mood today.
    I will look forward to seeing you on the other side of your blogging break.
    Take care, and my best wishes as always. Pete. x

  • thoughtsnlifeblog

    Milly hope you feel better soon. I get how you feel and as others have said we all get a bit.

    I wanted to invite you to the self mastery series i am running daily on my blog.. it might be helpful to get you through this.. i am running it for month of june. Sharing meditations affirmation , talks etc..

    All the best bella

  • Lu

    Hi Lauren Just checking your okay? and Milly of course. I cannot pretend to know exactly how you are feeling but I have been feeling very similar for the past few months. I am just looking for some light now at the end of this long dark tunnel. I look forward to reading your posts when you are feeling a bit better. Luv Lu x